The two week wait is the longest 2 weeks of anyone’s life! There is so much that happens in this time IF you do conceive. It’s crazy. Pretty much every 2 week wait we’ve had, I have done research. I always feel new or different symptoms, even though I try not to. I try not to think of the impending date, but try to stay hopeful. It takes several days for the fertilized egg to travel down to the uterus, and several more days for the fertilized egg to implant into the uterine lining. The crazy increase in hCg hormone is what causes early pregnancy symptoms, so you really don’t have those until right before your two week wait is over. I know this. I remember this. But every time, something happens, and I wonder if it’s an early pregnancy symptom. It’s a constant battle between being positive and hopeful and not getting too excited. It is EXHAUSTING! We test on October 22, which is our date-iversary! 4 years ago on that date, was our first date. How amazing would it be to get a positive pregnancy test on this day after 2 years of trying. So positive thoughts, prayers, fertility dances, or whatever you believe our way would be appreciated. This road is HARD.
Currently, every time I get on social media, someone else is pregnant or someone else has a newborn. I just can’t deal. In the past, the day I take a pregnancy test until my period is over is the hardest time. Period emotions on top of disappointment and sadness is not a fun time. I tend to completely isolate during this time. About when my period is over, I have renewed hope. This is because the next cycle is just on the horizon. Fertility meds have my emotions and everything all jacked up. I’ve been on them so long that I don’t know what’s normal anymore. Lol! Poor Austin!
At this point, i don’t know what to share. I feel like I’ve poured out my guts, but I feel like there is still so much to share. I want whoever reads this to truly understand the journey and shittiness of infertility. I want this to be an awakening, so that people stop asking women when they are having a baby. So people will feel comfortable to talk about their infertility. So people will stop saying hurtful things when you tell them about infertility.
What do you want to know? What questions do you have? Help me out! (If anyone is actually reading this..lol)
Ryan’s Ramblings 