Two more sleeps until we start injections, which is the “start date” for our IVF cycle! There was so much to process yesterday, and by the time we got home and I started writing, I just didn’t have enough left to explore and give all the deets from yesterday.
One HUGE thing I forgot to mention, our clinic is lifting the visitor policy on the 19th! This means that Austin will finally be able to come with me to appointments! I am SO thankful for this! He will be right beside me for everything now. Such a sigh of relief and a huge weight lifted.
I mentioned the clinical trials we are able to participate in. These aren’t any huge thing—they aren’t taking away from what we are doing or add anything. The one for me is looking at the correlation between IVF outcomes and aging in your face. They will take a picture of my face the day of my retrieval with an app that looks at the aging of my face and estimates my age. The one for Austin is looking at a specific protein or something. It can only be found in spinal fluid or bone marrow or something crazy and sperm. So they are looking at the correlation between this protein and IVF outcomes. Or something like that. We are all for it!
The other thing I found out is that I have to wean off of my Vyvance before the day of our transfer. This will not be fun. This med is for my ADHD. I’ve been off it before, in between refills, and its bad. I can’t get anything done. I can’t remember anything. So in addition to the crazy hormones and recovering from the egg retrieval surgery, I will be off of that med. Hopefully it isn’t for long! I didn’t ask that, so I’m writing that question down.
I got my car back from the garage yesterday, too. Turns out, nothing was wrong with it. They checked everything. No leak. No broken hoses. Coolant in the tank. Gauges were fine. So all of that mess, a rental car for almost $250, and the stress for nothing & cost $130. Such is my life! I will need a new battery soon, so adding that to my list of things I need to spend money on after we pay for everything with our IVF cycle.
Thinking about the money would be a lot easier if IVF was 100% chance of live birth. If so, I wouldn’t be so unsure about everything. Should I get a loan? Should I not? Should I get my car fixed or wait? If this cycle doesn’t work, will we do another cycle? When will we do that? How in the hell will we pay for another round? If I get a loan to pay for the rest of this cycle and get the needed car repairs and then we need another cycle, then I’m fucked. What if 2 cycles doesn’t work? It’s so hard to think of anything after the end of April because of the uncertainty. Luckily, we can’t go anywhere or do anything. But still, loan? Credit card? Large purchases? New tires have been a dire need since November. There are some other things we’d like to do or upgrade. I’d love to get Austin a new car. He doesn’t have a car payment, so that would be an added monthly expense. If I do get a loan, that’ll be a car payment or close. UGH. At the moment, we have enough on credit cards and leftover from paying bills to pay for the rest of the cycle that we know of, the $2000. There may be more costs as we go on, into next week. Yay.
An update on my arm from yesterday’s blood draw for you! It still hurts today. Looks a lot worse, too.
Oh, and today was my first day off of birth control. Yay? I have a headache and have been about as moody as I have been. Lol! As the days progress and hormone levels will be changing daily, I’m going to be documenting feelings, symptoms, etc. Of course, who the hell knows if there’s a correlation, but oh well!
TWO MORE SLEEPS, Y’ALL!!!!!!!!!!
Ryan’s Ramblings 